SHAVUOT ET AL

I feel so disoriented right now from staying up all night - I figure this is the perfect time to blog away, just for closure on the day and on my feelings, before I take a shower and watch Law & Order...

At the Israel Center, where I spent the "meat" (better, "dairy"?) of Shavuot, I was there start to finish (including dinner). At about 1:30 a.m., though, I headed for the library there to do some studying on my own. It was starting to get a little boring at the shiurim after the shiur of Rabbi Ephraim Shprecher, who's a very hard act to follow... I was, btw, honored that he and his wife graced my table at dinner. On the way up, I spotted a book for sale about life after life, near-death experiences, the afterlife, you get the idea... I took the book upstairs to the library to devour its contents. Can you imagine, reading this stuff during the wee hours? Well, if I'm curious about something I don't care what time it is. Fascinating book, it drew tears to my eyes during the reading. I wonder sometimes what Ronnie my husband z"l, went through during his final moments and ascent to his Maker. I was there with him at the time of his death, so how can I not wonder?

Ah, enough of this morbid stuff! I got a phone call which kept me from continuing writing in this blog, and I gotta go shower now - TO BE CONTINUED...

Well. I'm back.... the next night. After a full day of work. Midnite, and I'm still up and feeling a need to finish this piece.

Now for a change of subject:

Does anyone out there ever feel the need to distance him/herself from people, places or things that are currently driving him/her just a little crazy? Well, I do. This is what I'm going through now. I can't share exactly what it is on this blog, because certain people read it, and the info. could get into the wrong hands.

It's hard to remove myself from people, places or things - sometimes excruciatingly hard - because it so goes against my natural inclination to want to be with...... but remove myself I must. It's a trial and a test for me. It's a dirty job, but somebody's gotta do it, as they say. And I know it's in the long run good for all concerned, including me.

I've only shared this with a couple of other people I trust. And that's the way I intend to keep it.

Laila Tov, Am Israel.